Natalie sleeps thru most of the time today and was only awake for feeding and less than half hour for playtime. Makes me feel so lonely today..hehe...When she is cranky and cries or keeps awake for most of the time, i was thinking to myself why can't she sleeps more so that i have my own time to do my own things and now that she keeps sleeping today, i felt lonely. heh....

I wonder how heavy she is now. This thought came to my mind when i was carrying her to the room while she was fast asleep and realise it's difficult to lift her up to my chest level with my palms. It's either i have weak wrists or she is really getting heavy. Her aunt has commented that she is getting rounder and her tummy is showing.

My Dad also commented "politely": "Wah, grown so big already ah after only a few weeks". I know him enough to know what he was thinking...hahaha...and he added later on that she drinks a lot and if drink so frequently, she may be on the big side...

Natalie.....will be like mama, slim slim but prettier than mama. She shall not take over her papa's size....Amen!...hehe...okok repent repent..I love you both darlings! :P

Been quite tiring looking after bb these days and looking like a jaundiced wife with panda eyes. :P. Life has taken a great change after Natalie was born.
I no longer have 7-8 hours of sleep thru the night.
I can't just leave home in the afternoon to even go to the shops downstairs.
I have to make sure bb is sound asleep before i could take a bath.
I can't just tell gh " hey, let's go out for a movie and have supper outside!"
My time revolves around my bb. (i do miss the times when it's just me and gh.)
My only connection (for now during my maternity leave) to the outside world during week days is the internet.

These sounds depressing but i love x 1000.... my bb's smiles, love x 1000... her smell, love x 1000...her coo-ing, love x 1000... her face. I can think of many reasons why i hate my lifestyle now but more reasons to get me to love life again. I love my darling gal too much! Abba has given me a great gift. Life has indeed taken a huge change: from good to heavenly!...hee... but i'm still tired out and need to knock out now.....

Looking forward to the weekends every week. I'm experiencing the stay-at-home-wife/mum lifestyle (excluding household chores :P) during this period and i'm starting to feel bored especially during weekdays when gh goes to work and i will be home whole day with baby. Of course i love baby's company, but felt that my life is revolving ard my baby and the four walls. Weekends seems to be the times when i get to be out either with gh alone or together with baby Natalie to church. My day/nite job now is servicing my baby Natalie :P

Having said that, in about 1 month's time, i will be back to work and have to learn to cope with my full time day job at work and part time nite job feeding Natalie and putting her to sleep. That seems to be more tiring so i salute to all working mums as well. Looks like I'm joining the gang soon! :

Anyways, i'm just soo blessed with my baby Natalie and love her soo much! I'm ready to be at her service anytime! (I confess that she will be an easy to handle baby! Amen!)

Too Qin Cai?

My mum came by herself to visit me at home. It's very rare since she is so used to being driven by my dad everywhere. Anyways, a conversation with her today triggered some thoughts.

While Mum was burping Natalie after her feeding session:

Me to my mum: If she burps after patting her back for like 3 minutes, tat's good, if not, just leave it la!

Mum: can burp one la, must pat for a longer while and if this position (sitting Natalie up), can do another position (carry over shoulder)

Me: Wah, at nite where got strength to burp so long?

Mum: hmm..it's gd that u so qin cai, some pple stressed up others about little things like that about their babies (if u know what i mean)

Me thinking to myself: i'm qin cai with my baby/darling/sweetheart?!

Does being qin cai means i'm not as concern about my darling's well-being or am i just trying to make this journey with my baby more enjoyable and less stressful? hmm.....

Well, i really had a great time with my baby and even laughing at her when she cries for milk instead of getting stressed up. (not that i'm a sadist but trying to show how i just enjoy her every mood and expressions even when she is crying). My child will be taught by the Lord and with that, it gives me peace to just enjoy every moment with her (even when she cries for milk in the middle of the nite and it disrupted my beloved sleep :P - I've been trying to find ways to get gh to sponsor my panda eyes treatment at some beauty salon...hehe...

Anyways, here are some of her cutest moments :)

hee :)